Lies

It’s the time that I realise that I’m lying to myself almost everyday.

Unexpected things happened all the time and it also happened to me. I have to sacrifice someone that I loved and still love. I told myself that I’m prepared for this break up and I won’t be sad for so long. I was in a misery for a whole month before we even break up. I knew that it will happen but I have no idea that it will be this hard to get over you.

I have been lying to myself that I am over you. I have been lying to myself that I moved on and like other guy when the truth is I’m just lying to myself. I do not like that guy but I just want to find someone who would replace you. I agree that I’m such a bitch to do so but, I did not understand myself. Now, I realise that I just want someone who I will so things that I did with you with. But you know how to sum this up? I just want you back. I want US.

I have a volleyball tournament in like 6 hours and I can’t stop thinking about you. I probably should go to sleep now. You would shout and me and tell me to go to sleep.

“Believe in yourself”

“You can do it!”

“Sleep a lot”

“Goodnight”

“I love you”

I still love you …