Keep your mind Conscious

Poonam Saini
Sep 7, 2018 · 2 min read

Why is it so hard to keep your own mind conscious?

I have been chronically asking myself why I am not able to control my mind. I was upset because of rapid mood swings. I tried many options like meeting friends for dinner, going to gym, preparing a time table but everywhere my mind could keep me disciplined only for a day. I was stressed.

This melancholy started causing health issues. I was moody, fighting with friends for no particular reason, and I was behaving childishly for tiniest things on earth. This odd behavior of mine was pushing me away from everyone. It was absolutely fine when I was not able to appease myself in a crowd, but the time spent with myself started depressing me. I was not happy with my own presence.

Things were going into deep shit. One day, a friend of mine, presented me a book. The title of the book was fascinating. I could relate to it at so many points. There were few lines which got stuck in my mind and I wanted to follow them. The lines were: ‘You are not special’ and ‘Pain is part of the process’. It took me a long time to understand it. So that day I thought about why I had been trying to be so special, why I had been seeking attention from everyone , where as I had not done anything extraordinary and I had always been hurting my people. I started analyzing and I found that weakness was in me. I was considering myself special thinking that I was all good and I was not accepting my mistakes. I understood the very fact that my mind was out of my control. And I decided that I had to keep my mind Conscious.

The power of unconscious mind is really strong and it will snatch your control out of your hands if you don’t work on it to make it conscious, it harms you and it makes you alone and depressed in your own presence. It will detach you from your friends, family and close ones. Initially it is really hard to keep track on it but believe in this quote “Pain is part of the Process”. You will face pain today to assuage the pain of tomorrow. Start with baby steps, write down things which are bothering you, initially start with one minute of observation on your mind’s consciousness and increase this time when you go along. And one fine day you will have your control. Trust yourself. Let the pain be tomorrow’s happiness.