I cant understand.

I don’t understand how things change so quickly. One second everything was amazing but then the next second, that feeling is gone. The happiness has left and in comes the draft. I’ve experienced monumental loss, economic struggles, and some of life’s most amazing moments. And I’m only a senior in high school. I smile and continue on, knowing I’ve had so much life experience that people at my age normally haven’t experienced or even know about. Most seniors don’t understand the difficulty of raising yourself and mentally unstable older sister from age 8 on ward due to the passing of your mother, the one you were closest too. With a military dad who was absent a lot.

Life is hard, nothing comes easy, and you fall a lot till you reach success. At age 9 I learned how my words and decisions affect others and their issues. I saw my sister entered into 3 mental hospitals. I’ve witnessed countless issues and became the back bone for my family and multiple friends.

I’m soon to be 18 and wish I didn’t have to be. I know how hard life is and I don’t look forward to how much harder it will get. I can’t stand to lose my dad eventually, or new step mom. I cant stand to see my brother heartbroken over a girl, or injured while playing hockey, the thing he absolutely loves.

It all changed in the blink of an eye. I was a happy little girl living the American dream one second. Then the next I’m learning all about cancer, death, greif, and love. Life happens sometimes you just have to live with it.