Evaa
Evaa
Sep 9, 2018 · 3 min read

Hey people!

So today after a long research on the topic me. I have finally got the true me.. just wanted to share it with you guys. Hope you like it!

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Yes it’s me.. a bit despo.. a bit attention seeker.. a bit “peeche padne vali”.. a bit irritating personality .. a bit “chep”!

But my dear i just wanna remind you that, everything a person is composed of is in some way or the other, the reflection of his older times; maybe his childhood or the betrayals. The thing she had been deprived of, has just took over her. What’s so surprising in that? Someday or the other it was coined to come over.

Yes I was never loved by anyone, or you can say ,” Their love was not able to quench my thirst”. As it was way different from the ones people nowadays have.

No one did loved me.. and no one. still does.. Well! it’s just them, and. them! Every other time.

And when it’s over for them, it’s just over.. it should be over for you too, got it? This is what I am tired of hearing. Like there is a switch to the feelings whenever I want I can turn it on and when I want i’ll simply tell her to switch it off what’s the big deal? As soon as i am not effected by that switch!

I understand every single time people are attracted towards me, via my appearances; which are not perfect either.. ‘there are many flaws in me, actually innumerable ‘ The one you’ll term as a BEAUTIFUL, is just opposite me.

Yes, I agree that am a dual personality! And I am proud of the fact that at least i have the guts to say that to everyone.

Everyone is! You might have heard that saying, that there are three faces to every person.. the one which is for the public, the other one for the dear ones, and the third one for no one!

They try to be with me.. and I totally appreciate that effort. As it’s not that simple either. I have my mood swings, my emotional fits, my own priorities… But as soon as they realise what i am, as soon as they conquer my second face! The emotional one, the attached one. They try to just avoid.. things with me, the connections with me; as they may loose their temper. I don’t Understand why people are afraid to commit to someone! Is it that difficult? I mean seriously yr why can’t you just openly say to “the person” that you love him? What is wrong is expressing them?

I strongly believe that expressing is an equally important part of the process of ‘falling for someone’. Come on! man is it that difficult to just pour your heart out?

Why are people afraid to be genuine? But guess what i got answer to that too! And it is, that they have a fear that people might disapprove of their genuineness.

That simply mean that, all that people are worried about, is their fake boldness!

I may even sound as the one who doesn’t have his/ her self respect.. or the one who is a self centred. person.

But my question is… Is valuing a person or the relation you share with him, that big crime?Is it not a great thing? To be a single person people can rely upon, in this fake world?

Every time they ask me about my personal life and why I don’t have any friends, why i stay alone?

I am just triggered to open up..

People usually don’t let anyone know their weak points, so that no one could hurt them. But again my point is, when you have your HOMMIES 🏠❤️ hurting you, how does it matter if some one else you don’t even know, leave you abandoned!

You can say it’s my weak point.. I have to make it stronger! And then stronger to the strongest. So that no one can weaken it up!

And this is how she found her true self!

How do you guys like this story. Please DM and lemme knoe! 😚😚

#Unfathomable thinker^.^

    Evaa

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