Fuck it!! I’m out of here..

The whole world went to a standstill, and I skipped a heartbeat or two maybe. I lost the track of my body and the surrounding at the slightest sight of her. Where is this coming from, this insane trauma, the hormones going haywire, but what the fuck.. what is happening?/

I enter the room and there I see this, this, this………..! Falling short of words, emotions ripping apart and trauma taking in and suddenly a few of the switches in my mind just blows off.. Urgency, Crusher, Orange..Wait WHAT!! some parts just stopped functioning not knowing where am I or what am I thinking at the stunning sight of this this this….! I cannot describe enough how it was..Spiritual! nope, nowhere close.

Wait a minute, I know her and I am a rational man, a man of reason, why could I not control myself at the sight of what I was looking. I remember clearly my mind was heavily occupied with figuring out the problems of the most important project of my life, stakes all in and it all just goes out of the window flying like a flying saucer some unearthly element threw, or maybe a missile launcher coz I could not see where it went and my rationality along with it.

Not now!! Not at this point of time.. Endure man..not now.. I kept telling myself, but no matter what I just wanted to grab every single second of the splendid sight I could avail. What the fuck is wrong with me..

Shut up and grow up I kept telling myself..I think I did. All the more I tried it just grew more and more on me. Fuck.. no way out..I got trapped!!

I remember her speaking to me. I don’t distinctly remember the exact words, as I was mesmerized by what my heart was feeling, what my eyes were seeing, what my ears were listening, and the proximity man…the warm breath of her passing through my face when she spoke in my ear.. I cannot remember anything after that, I just nodded and tried and exclaimed wherever I found appropriate to the best of the capabilities at which my brain was functioning in that very moment, also tried to put in a dialogue or two to let the conversation continue even though not having a single clue of what I was saying but the comforts of the moment just cannot be simply described.

Breathtaking…. only if I could explain my thoughts well enough!! Did you see there..I think I just lost one more beat at the slightest thought of it…:/