Writing is very strange. At times, it’s easy. Words just flow onto the page. Other times, it’s impossible. Every word is a struggle. It’s frustrating, because I want to write, but my mind is just blank.
I used to write a lot. At one point, I wrote every day for over a year. I got burned out, but my writing also got significantly better. Ideas came like clouds, floating into view whenever I looked up. Unfortunately, I got burned out. I stopped writing, and when I tried to start again, my mind went blank. The stress of writing to an audience, and dealing with a blog, and whether I was writing about the right things paralyzed me. Thinking got in the way of writing. I had ideas, but most of the time I was too paralyzed by fear and stress to put words onto the page. In 2015 I’m going to change that.
I’ve never really made a New Year’s Resolution, but in 2015 I am making one to write at least 2–3 times a week(on any subject). My goal is to bring back the fluidity and clarity I had in my writing, while avoiding burnout. I am also looking for something a bit deeper. Kurt Vonnegut described the benefits of writing as “experienc[ing] becoming, learn[ing] a lot more about what’s inside you, and mak[ing] your soul grow”. Most of what I write will probably benefit or interest no one but me, but that is perfectly alright because the benefits of writing come before anyone ever reads your work.
I’ll start out writing on Medium, but keep an eye out for my new writing project which I will be announcing on Twitter soon.