I don’t wear INTJ on my sleeve. Neither should you.

I have a love and hate relationship with MBTI typology. I woke up one day realizing I had spent three days in pursuit of the nature of my Cognitive Process according to Carl Jung and hadn’t managed to write nor research for my next works.

What triggered my interest was the fact that someone in Twitter assumed “You’re not INTJ” without second thought nor regard after I had provided the result of an unreliable personality quiz. “I’ve lived with an INTJ all my life and you’re not like her.”

My initial reaction was “That’s a preposterous assumption based on social media. If you’d want to get to know me, you have to read my blog!” I have always associated myself with how I think rather than how I behave because no matter how objectively I think I act, others might perceive me in a manner I don’t even intend. I therefore asked myself what possible indicators led this person to say such when I myself am not sure what type I can actually associate myself with.

Then again, wouldn’t tests have a more objective and standardized judgment than a person whom you’ve never even met?

Don’t get me wrong. I am not glorifying INTJ but I’m trying to disprove my being one to make the previous argument valid. I have reached the point where I myself have become more aware of how I receive information and process it.

Learning that the examiners type may also affect the interpretation of the result (D. Sharp, Personality Types: Jung’s Model of Typology), I wonder how many of those who cloaked themselves with INTJ are easily satisfied with the answers they have without even taking the official test. When Carl Jung’s Cognitive Processes took twenty years in completion, a recipe of time and experimentation, how can they all assume and even be contented with their Ni Te Fi Se?

“INTJ”, “ESFJ” “INTP” are not tags I want to wear on my sleeves.

There’s a standard test pattern.

I took fourteen examinations from various sites (still avoiding the $150 Official MBTI because that costs more than an arm and a leg for me) and eleven are consistent. However, the more consistent my results become, the more dissatisfied I get. You see, I test well- this is one of my considerations. I can see patterns in exams, I can always remember what answers I should choose. I bet, I can even test fourteen times again and get ESTJ consistently.

Behavior descriptions are biased.

MBTI Tumblr posts are interesting and can give one a good laugh. I spent a night reading through those, too. However, they are far from being sufficient and the very sad thing is I can totally relate to the negative ‘behavioral’ INTJ descriptions in other ‘personality’ sites but not the positive ones:

-NEGATIVE-
Overconfident — check
Sarcastic — oh boy, check
Stubborn — my first psychometric exam revealed this
Grammar Police — that’s my job
-POSITIVE-
Logical — Someone called me out for having a list in my head.
Strategic — Are we playing Plants vs Zombies?
Quiet — Hm…
Independent — …sometimes?

These days, self-proclaimed INTJs claim the last one and continuously nitpick at each other’s mistakes online for an excuse to be rude that they miss the whole point: your English Grammar does not make you more INTJish than the next person who can speak excellent Spanish, German, Japanese, or do Morse code. The irony is, ‘behavioral descriptions’ say INTJs see the forest for the trees, the big picture before the details but grammar police tend to see mistakes than ideas and doing the opposite (Hurrah! I am not an INTJ!).

MBTI is about Cognitive Processes

There have been debates saying MBTI twisted Jung’s cognitive processes. One thing is for sure though: when you take exams, official or online, the conscious dominant process one you are most likely to use is already ‘colored’ by the unconscious inferior trait you possess.

Did you know that our auxiliary functions are developed in our 20s and we can still have time to develop our inferior functions before 60s? How can these kids who have not even heard of Carl Jung know, be experts all of a sudden and conclude INTJs wear black? How easy research must have have been for those who have proclaimed “Im an INTJ” or “INTJ here” in Youtube’s comment section. I have to hand it to these guys for having the INTJish confidence! Unicorns run about in the world wide web after all.

The deeper I dig, the more I realize what I don’t know. The more I try to disprove it, the more I feel a nail is being driven to my psychological confinement. I am no way nearer being satisfied but eventually I need to stop. I have spent six months trying to figure out how this typology works- introverted intuition still baffles me- only to come up with a conclusion of what type of people I don’t like and what I prefer (INTP!). At least now, I can stop saying “I don’t like this person” and instead, “Her extroverted Feeling overpowers her Thinking, she cannot decide well.”

I will still appreciate if people can talk me through it all, particularly those who have met me and have read what I wrote, and tell me what type they think I prefer*. For now, I’m letting go of MBTI until I save $150, and start focusing on Freud’s Dream Psychology and Jung’s Man and his Symbols and probably, researching for my pieces as ferociously as I did for MBTI — that I think I should.

*Prefer and preference are words MBTI practitioners use that cannot be associated with the word ‘choice’, rather the type a person ‘exhibits.’