fate
Are you the ones that believe in fate? Do you believe that maybe this is how life was meant to be. Hoping I can put this across in a very positive note. When I look back in life, I realize that I was never meant to end up in India, let alone be studying in Manipal. My aims were much higher and my expectations for my performance was over the roof. It requires another 100 lines to maybe configure why I didn’t perform as I expected myself to, but it made significant changes on how my life was routed and molded in order to push through the failures and move on. I originally never planned to do my undergrad in India and was hoping to go abroad with a scholarship in one of the world’s best university. But my results were not enough to even clear the minimum requirement for that prestigious institution and in my confidence of performing well, I hadn’t prepared for entrances for Indian colleges. To my luck I got through Manipal with a branch that I was happy with. But this I turn brought a lot of positives in life. I studied closer to home which helped as I could visit often. This maybe one of the reason why I am in such a happy and stable relationship. This also let me discover a whole new level of life that maybe couldn’t have been possible in the university that I was wanting to get in. In fact this major change from my initial plan brought together very important things in my life. When I actually look back on how different life would have been if I had actually managed to get through, it scares me in a way. I feel everything worked out the way it should have and I have not regretted not working harder as I hadn’t achieved my goals. It is surprising in a way that now I feel my life right now is better than what I initially wanted. Yes! there are days where things go downhill to a point where I am on the verge of giving up. But I can’t disagree of the days where I have never been happier about the phase I am in. Looking at the same scenario negatively, I can always complain how amazing my life would have been in terms of academics and opportunities if I had achieved my goal, how independent I would have been and maybe it would have slingshot me into places where I might not be able to achieve anymore. But I feel it is better to look at the silver lining and be happy of where you are and what has got you here. Be happy about the people around you and the things you have achieved. Now when I think of fate, it makes sense to me, maybe this was how it was supposed to turn out from the very beginning and definitely it is the best possible outcome there could have been.
