I started last week with really high hopes, but, each day seemed to be harder than the last. By the time Saturday rolled around I felt myself feeling so depressed and discouraged. I was questioning myself, questioning my abilities, questioning the direction I have been taking.

The imposter syndrome had been plaguing me all week and had finally boiled over. The weird part was, last week didn’t seem particularly different than any of the previous weeks this summer… but for whatever reason constant doubt plagued me and wore me down.

While I am not sure for the reason I was feeling so overwhelmed, I know that those feelings often creep up when I know I have not been prepared enough or haven’t been focusing on the things that are priorities.

I believe this week will be different. I am letting go of negative feelings. I am letting go of the worry that I am not going to succeed or accomplish my goals. I am letting go of the fear of being a fraud and a fake. I am not those things, I know who I am and I know who made me. There are still 11 days left of August, 11 days to make big things happen.

Here is my recap of last week…

The Good:

  • I set a goal of going to my fitness bootcamp Tuesday-Friday and I did it. There was a moment on Friday during our sprints where I realized running had gotten a bit easier… don’t get me wrong, it was still extremely hard and I was wheezing and hurting, but, I made it through and even beat my time by 10 seconds at one point.
  • This might belong in the “(not so) good” category, but, I limited my coffee intake… my goal had been to not drink coffee for the whole week, but I couldn’t do it. There were days I didn't have coffee at all, but the days I did I forced myself to have only 1 cup (I believe I messed up and had 2 cups one of the days…)
  • My OpsFest show, The Two Gentleman of Verona, at Say Caio went REALLY well! I had a lot of fun playing guitar and getting to see my Ops friends again after a 2 week break.
  • I consistently was in bed before 11pm, which was the goal I set out for myself.
  • I didn’t eat or drink anything with calories after 9pm.

The (not so) Good:

  • Eating right was a big challenge the later part of the week. Friday night I went to a movie night with some friends and ate too much bad food. Then over the weekend I made cookies and bought ice cream. I know it was because I was feeling down and it was a way of making myself feel “better” momentarily.
  • I fell behind on my daily reading goal.
  • I fell WAY behind on my daily writing goal (For my novel) and publishing goal (For this blog).

Here is an update for my goals for the next week and month of August.

August: Daily Goals

  1. No eating or drinking anything with calories after 9pm.
  2. Writing 350 words a day towards my novel.
  3. Documenting my daily calorie intake with MyFitnessPal.
  4. More reading, less Netflix. Daily reading goal of 25 pages.

August: Week Three Goals

  1. Make it thru the 6am bootcamp at Headstrong Fitness every day this week!
  2. Prepare for my FINAL OpsFest show, Comedy of Errors, at Mt. Tabor on Saturday at 2pm. This is going to be an all male cast, just like it would have been done during Shakespeare’s time. I get to play Dromio of Ephesus, and I am EXTREMELY excited!
  3. I am going to set a goal of publishing at least 4 times to get myself back on track once again. I also am going to work at finding a consistent time and place to write again.
  4. No laptop time after 9:30pm. (I am already breaking this rule for myself right now!)
  5. In bed before 11pm.

August: Monthly Goals

  1. Lose 20 pounds.
  2. Finish reading “Real Artists Don’t Starve” by Jeff Goins.
  3. Complete the “Funnel Gorgeous” course that my boss/friend Alex so kindly and graciously purchased for me to take. I have been following Julie Stoian for the last year and it will be cool to finally learn more in-depth knowledge from her.

Like I said, there are still 11 days left of this month. I have made a lot of progress this summer and know that I can hit some of my major goals (like losing 20 pounds this month!)

In case you were wondering, there are only 133 days until 2019… which is plenty of time for you to make some positive changes in your life. If you ever need any encouragement or want to share your goals and wins with myself and other cool people that are bettering themselves, think about joining the Prodigal Warriors Facebook Group!

Chris Murphy

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