Why am I unlovable ? Parallels in Thalapathy / Steve Jobs
What was so unlovable about an infant that she had to throw him in a goods train ? What could an infant possible to do make someone reject it ? The young mother, who gave birth outside a wedlock and at an age where she didn’t have clear understanding of herself or motherhood, regrets immediately. However, It was too late. The train departed leaving her to live a life filled with regrets everyday. Too late to keep him wondering his entire life that what makes him so unlovable that even the person who gave him birth has to throw him away. Too late to have him trust in any person who offered love to him, as he believed, he will thrown away in another one. The couple who picked him from the goods train also didn’t spare the truth either. This has been the recurring question that Suriya asks himself throughout the movie Thalapathy (1991). When he is questioned about his identity – all he could come up with is a furious but controlled Teri-yadhu (Translation : Don’t Know). Then comes Deva, who takes him out of the prison, doesn’t care to ask him about his identity and offers him friendship. Suriya, is too wounded to believe this. When he gets this love from Deva, not riddles with reasons, he is forever indebted to him. He has never been seen and accepted like that before.
The character Steve Jobs from Steve Jobs (2015) goes through something similar. He tells John Sculley “My mother said she refused to love me for the first year….What the hell can a one-month-old do that’s so bad his parents give him back?” Jobs never gets to find his Deva or maybe unlike Surya he is indifferent to people’s affection.