PublicPills- The Raincoat
My first attempt at leaving the pills brought up a strong sensation becoming physically ‘awake’. Let me explain. Although I did not feel my body as being ‘numb’ before, I did began feeling a knot in my throat, and tingling in my chest, mild shivers up and down my back. I could ‘feel’ sensations, purely physical sensations again throughout my body that was overall — uncomfortable. However, this word does not describe the sense of what I truly felt just physically. I had a constant mental IMAGE of a raincoat — using it under the rain and walking around the city, feeling prepared for any weather because I had my raincoat on. It was physically protecting me from the outside hard environment. Allowing me to feel slightly warm and protected inside. NOW, my raincoat was off. I did not feel like I was naked but simply had a layer of protection taken off and allowing other sensations to be felt by my body. Oddly, I felt ‘exposed’ again, this time in a physical way.
I do not like feeling cold and having drizzly fall on my body. I thought: I like my raincoat.
