everything & nothing at all.
i gave away
my purity
my dignity
my kindness
to a self destructive boy
who couldn’t even love himself
let alone love me
i gave him everything
i poured my entirety into his being
he was my universe while i was
merely his star
he was everything and nothing at all
he took and took and took
from me
in a selfish attempt to feel complete
until i burned out
and as soon as i began to stand
on my own two feet again,
as soon as i had something to
give again
he stormed back in
demanding all of it
he fucked me
and lied to me
and used me all up
and left when he got bored
what gives him the right
my body is not your rest stop
my heart is not your playground
my sweetness is not limitless
you shatter yourself like glass
and yell at me to pick up the pieces
but i cut my fingers every time
little did i know you can’t stand
the sight of blood
the second things get rough
you vanish
and my glass boy is gone
and i’m left alone
to bleed
again.
