Sonnets out of tune

I wish I could go back in time and make it better for you

I wish I hadn’t said yes

I wish I had set you free, perhaps our ties would have become stronger then

I wish I wasn’t wishing any of this

I love the way you smile, I love the wrinkles in the corner of your eyes, your avatar eyes.

Every time I think of you my heart goes fast, all I want is another life to make it up

Guilty of not wanted to end it, guilty of not wanting to hurt, guilty of not being enough for you, guilty of being guilty.

Loving you the way I did was no good, I know it now. It was toxic, now I am in withdraw, how to tell my body there is not you anymore. How to fill that space that wasn’t there before.

How to look at you in the eye, I wish I had done that in the past, what did I want? Don’t we all want what is essential? No, we want what we didn’t have! Who says that!

Yes I am angry!! For mothers sake! What! Yes! For mothers sake!! I say whatever the funch I want. And you think is funny, of course it is. Otherwise I wouldn’t be here.

Now get the fuck out of here would you? Where there is something better to do, I know how comforting it is reading crap like this, it makes you feel good and that you can do it better.