Kick The Fears

Rabia Ikram
Nov 1 · 2 min read

We have goals in our lives or areas where we want to improve our personality and perspective. Mostly, we identify those areas or skills but, most of us fail to work on them.

If I specifically talk about myself here, I have stopped my creativity due to many obvious reasons. I’m aware of my skill set but not paying attention to polish it.

Fortunately, I have got a chance to consider that skill set of mine. Here in Amal fellowship, we have assigned an activity. In this activity, we are supposed to write a clear goal by writing the strategy of starting and addressing our progress journey.

My statement;

I know I’m good at painting, writing, sketching and doodling stuff. But I have had fears due to which I’m afraid of opening up to people and expressing myself. Now I have basically listed three to four issues. The real challenge was to come up with one solution.

Guess what idea popped up?

Journalling

I assigned myself three tasks;

1- To express me

2- Take a mode to express me

3- Feel free to do it

I have identified my first challenge right after starting it. That was anxiety. I let myself get overwhelmed or anxious but tried to hold a pencil and drew lines. Then I thought about a few things I want to speak about. The last step was “just start”.

I started to make doodles, sketches, writing many lines, erasing them, rewriting and kicking off my fears. This was just a start.

I noticed a difference in my approach and lighter to working on many things at the same time. This single solution helped me to address all issues in one place.

Now I have intentions to keep it up by practicing journaling on a daily basis. This will help me to work on my creativity, writing, overcoming the fear of expressing myself by making me more clear.

A picture from journal

The second problem which I identified was my communication skills and fear of public speaking.

To overcome this;

1-I decided to take the initiative of just speak

2-To start an online course/ learning five words daily and applying them into my conversations

3-As movies may waste my time so shifting it to documentaries. This approach was useful on the other hand.

My schooling isn’t up-to mark, whatever I know is because I’m learning something new daily. So, in the first place, I have hesitated and assumed people may judge and laugh at me. But then I let it go.

I have overcome hesitation by moving towards speaking and measuring my progress. It wasn’t easy but still, I’m working on it. Though, I’m not yet cent percent perfect in it. But I’m trying and hopeful to be the one I’m imagining to be in my head.