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A Letter to my Doctor:

Am I awake right now? Or am I actually asleep? Are you currently awake? Do you think you are? Which question is the most important question of that set for you right now today?

Here is why I am awake and I don’t know you but I think you may not be. I am 22 on the verge of 23 years old. I have been trying and failing my entire life to wake up, WAKE UP. Get up, GET UP. Go to school, GO TO SCHOOL. Go to college, GO TO COLLEGE. Go to work, GO TO WORK.

I realized this July 14, 2016. I don’t know what day it is for you right now. I think we’re all a lot more equal than we even know or can comprehend at this time. However, I do know that today is Sunday, August 7, 2016. It is 7:53am and I cannot sleep.

Is it okay for me to be awake right now? Are you awake right now? What if we both decided that it’s okay to be AWAKE right now? I am awake, are you?

I keep hitting the snooze button on my alarm, but I always feel more awake when I’m allowed to wake up on my own time. It’s not that I don’t appreciate your time, I just think we’re all struggling. I only think that because I know I was struggling. For 22 years I was completely and utterly wrong. About every thing. Every single thing. I was asleep for my entire known life. 22 years of sleep. Now I’m finally awake and every one just wants me to sleep more.

What is the issue with me right now? Is there something wrong with me?

Please advise.