My name is Raghav Bagai. I would like to describe myself as a 21 year old simple, sincere and passionate individual having big dreams in life ☺
Today, I am starting something I really wanted to do for a long time now. For almost 6 months now, I wanted to write. Write about my thoughts, about my views, about things happening around as I really think I am a very weird person, I notice a lot and judge a lot and generally have a different way of looking at things. But the problem was somehow I could never find the time to write. The ironic part is now when I have a proper job, I somehow have time, so here I go ☺
The first thing I want to write about is my current position in life and where I come from. Well, I did my schooling from Modern School, Barakhamba Road and college from Hansraj College, DU. All these institutes are brilliant and I feel proud boasting them on my CV but somehow the most crucial learning’s in my life were not from these institutes but from this organization called AIESEC.
AIESEC, is the worlds largest student run organization spread in 130 odd countries. The aim of the organization is to develop leadership skills in young people and then through that improving the state of the world. I joined AIESEC in 2010 on my first day in college and stayed there till very recently, leaving it on 2nd February 2014.
During my stint I learnt a lot of things, about life, about people, about organizations and what not. I saw what networking and socializing meant. I saw people working, I saw people fighting and I saw people supporting and loving each other. Having led various teams and worked on several projects it taught me so much about life.
When I joined this organization, I was a shy and introvert person who wanted to do things but was too naive and innocent but when I leave this organization I am confident about who I am and what I want to do. I am sure about what I want to in life and how will I do it. It has changed my life and I love this organization for what it does. Hence, just wanted to dedicate this to AIESEC ☺
Having talked about my background and my history, I now move on to where I am right now in my life.
Well, after having completing my president term in AIESEC Delhi University, I was/am at a stage where I had to decide whether to continue in AIESEC or move out to study/take a job/go for an internship etc. I have experienced all positions at a local level and the next step is/was going national and working in the India Team. Having had a very successful journey in AIESEC( Thank god for that :D) getting selected would have not been an issue, so it was about applying or not applying.
This decision is/was the toughest I have to take in my life. I didnt want to leave AIESEC because of what I feel for it and what I think I can do here but somehow I feel after staying here for 3 years its my comfort zone and my mind is a little scared to move out. Its here I want to share about my experience with a LEAD coach a year back where through my conversation with him he analyzed me and told me, that I am a coward. Apparently, I took the easy way. From that day, I decided maybe I need to be stronger and since then I consciously kept this in mind.
Coming back, hence, as much as I wanted to continue in the organization, I decided to not continue in AIESEC as I wanted to challenge myself and NOT be a coward. I have reached a stage where I have convinced my mind about a lot of pro’s of not continuing in AIESEC but my heart is still to it. Its looks like the famous heart vs mind problem.
The twist here is that I have decided to follow the mind but I somehow believe that the mind is not right. I feel maybe its not that cowardly to continue. The question then is, how much is the heart affecting this feeling. The answer, I simply dont know.
For now, I have joined a start up. A very interesting one. People are good here, office is good, learning is good and everything is brilliant but somehow even after taking a decision of moving on, I am confused.
Is thinking from the mind a good decision? Is the mind thinking the right thing? Where is that feeling coming from? What does the heart really want? For the first time in my life, why am I so confused?
Lets see where life takes me. As someone said, you cant connect the dots looking forward but only backward☺
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