May 13
I Am an Alien Waiting for My Spaceship
Albert Camus quotes —
Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.
I got to learn this truth about myself being an alien when I was a teenager.
Not long ago though. Not that I had anticipated this coming, but to come out honest I have always been a misfit. Misfit from inside. From the outside, I tried as hard as I could to seem normal and most of the times I succeeded, unaware of the fact that I never actually belonged to this planet.
My experience as a human being dealing with people, relationships, friendship and love has never been great. I tried though, I tried even harder while growing up as an adult.
If you are curious about my planet and how life is there, then I guess, I don’t even remember the name of my planet to this day. But all I can tell you with conformity is that it’s a really small and less populated planet as compared to earth. My story is that at a very young age I got exiled from there and had to move to another planet for the rest of my life until their spaceship comes to find me to take me back with them. Nobody knows about all this except you people now.
Spending all these years on this planet I gradually learnt about different concepts and theories pivotal not for surviving alone but to grow up as being a human on this planet.
Everybody here has a set of people that is called family, the one you can always confide in. Yeah, that’s right. I too have a family, not the most perfect people on earth but they are family anyway.
Let me tell you my most essential observation about this planet that I made through out my years living here, people are obsessed with “love”. I came to learn love is the second most compulsory thing to grow as a human being — after money takes the first place.
I already told you about the concept of family, right, they tell you they love you and in return, you love them too. It’s like everyone here is trying to make sure that you give your solidarity to the people you belong to.
Once you seem to grow up as an adult on this planet, you are allowed or say you are supposed to use the concept of love and build your own set of family or partner with someone from the other set, moving on from the last one you grew up with.
I am yet to find the other set. If I come out honest, I don’t think I would ever find myself in the position to build my own set of confidant people ever. I have been in constant difficulty merely to understand the dimensions of every concept of love and how inhabitants here find it easy to blend with when all I can find is an absurdity.
It’s not that I despise living on this planet but the thing is that I am still anticipating that my spaceship would come one day to take me back to where I belong. My years as an exile on this planet would have to come to an end one day. I am waiting for that day patiently.
I know that despite all the absurdity that I find here on this planet, after returning to my planet I would certainly miss a few things about here and of all my set of people, called family. No matter how strange they are. We are still family. Ain’t we?
Are you too waiting for your spaceship? Let me know if I am not alone, feeling alone on this planet.
