I: On Writing
So I had my hands on my friend’s boyfriend’s brother’s book, which happen to be the product of a 90-day writing challenge. I found it inspiring — the act of producing by consistent daily grind. So I’m gonna do that too.
And yes this is it. I just started. I’m proud of myself for that. A few years back I would have postponed taking on this challenge. Or any challenge for that matter — anything that I think I would enjoy but knew I’m still mediocre at, or really just terrible at. I would have told myself that I’d do it when I get better at it. And then I would have further enshrouded myself in a miserable thicket of even more pathetic excuses as to why I can’t start now. And so I wouldn’t. Then I’d never.
And here’s how I pep-talked myself into this.
Starting the challenge. It’s probably the most difficult part of the challenge. You’d have to overcome inertia. Overcome your need for comfort. Overcome your fear of failure. Overcome your fear that when you actually start doing something you think you’re good at you’d end up confirming what that inner discomforting voice keeps on telling you — that no, you’re not good enough, you suck and you’re mediocre, and you’ll never be good enough. Yes, it’s that perfectionist’s dilemma — expecting eloquence to flow write out of your fingertips— that may be keeping you from even starting. But guess what? If we had that dilemma back in our “babyhood” when we were still trying to stand and yet we keep on falling, we never would have learned how to walk.
Keeping the challenge. Just start. Then keep going. Don’t go too fast — you’ll immediately wear yourself out and not push through. Not too slow — you’ll bore yourself out and not push through. Take small incremental steps everyday. Or every other day. Or even week, but that’ll be too slow. Set low expectations. Expect small results that may suck. But don’t bother about that for now. You’re still building yourself up. You’ll never get better by not doing. Enough with the excuses. Give it the same need as your need to take a bath everyday, or your need to brush your teeth before going to bed at night. Just keep moving. Keep writing.
Well, that’s it for Day 1. Let’s see how far I’d get without breaking the streak.
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