Terrific piece of writing!
Whether you believe it or not, you are constantly battling voices in your head.
I totally believe it. Often times a little me pops up on my left shoulder with a halo floating over his head urging me to be brave but a little me with horns would suddenly appear on my right shoulder, floats over, and quickly stabs the other guy with his fork.
The resistance is that little voice in the back of your head telling you to back off, be careful, go slow, compromise, to procrastinate, to stay in bed, to stop planning for tomorrow.
Wow, it’s amazing how you summed up my life and you don’t even know me! And with emphasis on the next to last activity — stay in bed. It’s especially hard for me to change given it’s a king-sized big with a $3k state of the art foam mattress and 1000 thread count Egyptian cotton sheets.
Ernest Hemingway once said “Write drunk; edit sober”
I code so I practice this religiously instead — Code drunk; test sober. While I feel this is working great, my employers beg to differ and fire me quite a number of times for doing it. On my last firing before I was briskly escorted out the door, I remembered telling my boss, But I was only drinking during lunch.