Everything Was Going Well
But Something Was Missing…
(Part 2)
Let me confess
I learned more online than
I did from my university degree!
→Improved my English speaking and writing skills
→Improved my creative and analytical skills
→Improved my communication skills
By preferring skills over a degree
I became able to achieve things
that I didn’t even dream of!
For the first time in my life,
→I realized the power of my thoughts and my words
→I experienced the feeling of earning my first dollar
→I witnessed the happiness on my parent’s face
Everything was going well
But something was missing…
It’s easy to glamorize things
But every picture has two sides
On the one hand,
I was living my dream life
But on the other,
I started feeling missing out
For example, whenever I used to see a
job post demanding a Bachelor’s degree
I really wanted to cry while remembering
my BS degree that I had left halfway
I started feeling isolated,
missing my uni friends,
the days we spent together
and the memories we made
There came a time when I desperately
wanted to go back and continue my studies
But I was afraid that
I wouldn’t manage both
my studies and freelancing
At that time,
I was at war with myself
One was encouraging me to do so
But the other one was holding me back
And finally… there came a day
when I had to make a decision
My Professor called me to decide
whether I want to continue or not
I remember it was 11:30 and she
told me to call her back at 12:00
Otherwise, I wouldn’t be able to
continue my degree ever!
I had 30 minutes to decide,
and a last chance to go back
Found myself in dilemma,
I was feeling so anxious
while staring at the clock
11:35
11:45
11:55
And in the last 5 minutes, I decided
to do something really really absurd
I picked up my pen and
wrote on a piece of paper
“Go Back!”
Then, wrote on the other one
“Don’t Go!”
I folded both pieces of paper,
closed my eyes and reached
out my hand…… to pick “ONE”
I know it sounds crazy
But the moment
I was reaching out my hand
I heard my heart screaming
Please the “Go Back!” one
That’s when I realised what
I really want deep inside
And guess what?
When I opened that piece of paper
It was the first one!
“Go Back!”
Ah, what a relief!
I rushed towards my phone
and told my Professor
that I am going to
continue my BS
Sometimes I wonder, what if
I hadn’t received a call that day
I decided to face my nightmares
instead of running from them
I promised myself
→I would not chase marks
→I would not stress about my GPA
→I would focus more on learning than studying
→I would learn things that will help me in practical life
And finally,
I graduated from university a few months back
while managing both freelancing and studies
It was not easy but I’m glad
I succeeded in doing so
Now I realize,
It is not about getting a degree or skill
It’s about having a learning attitude
Back then,
I was not familiar with
the true definition of learning
Diving into the freelancing world
taught me the real meaning of it
Looking back, I feel grateful
that I took those decisions
and examined my life to
make it worth living!
As Socrates beautifully said,
“The unexamined life is not worth living!”
Originally Published by the author on LinkedIn
