What it’s like living in my head

Living in my head is a constant struggle. Every minute of the day is a pendulum of emotions and nothing can prepare you for the next feeling you’re going to get. Whether it’s elation or a quick depression. Certain things like a boyfriend or a new job take the focus away but nothing permanently quiets my mind.

Keeping relationships is a constant struggle. I know I’m in pain because I can’t relate to others but it’s not something I can move on from. I push people away until they’re no longer there and then I feel sorry for myself.

Seeing myself is a constant struggle. It’s difficult knowing that I do these things and no matter how much I desire to change I simply can’t. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I wish I could help who I am.