All I can say one human to another human is that I hear you and your pain. It’s heartbreaking. My heart breaks with you and I don’t even know you. That is the strength of what you’ve said and that is a testament to how strong you are even in your most vulnerable moment. I hope that your community does gather round you. I hope that day by day you can find a small crack of light within the dark even if it’s just an incredible cup of coffee or a snuggle from your pooch. The world needs more beautiful and authentic souls like you.