I walk out of my exam center having given perhaps the worst CBSE exam ever. But it didn’t matter. It was my final exam in 12th grade. My schooling had officially come to an end. I am an alumnus of the school, not a student. After living out a somewhat routine life for the past 18 years, life is about to change in perhaps incomprehensible ways. Moving from a school I’ve been affiliated with for 12 years itself is a huge step, and moving to ANOTHER city to a faraway college is just a mind-blowing venture. As only one of the possibly thousands of students faced with the same choices, how is this going to affect us?
I’ve spent all of my life under the protection and guidance of my parents, and in these 18 years I’ve learned a lot of things, but independence is NOT one of them. For starters, I do not know to cook a BASIC dish for sustainability. What will I do without the constant voice of my mom telling me what I should do? I think what’s going to affect me most, of which people haven’t thought about, is the subtle things that have become routine in my life, like how there’s always something to snack on in the house at 5 pm. Or like how my mom folds my clothes and keeps them in neat little stacks. Or how my dad randomly asks me about my life and gives me advice. Things like this have become routine but I’ll realise their value when I’m deprived of them. The small moments of lively little conversations that are shared in the family, the fun banter, and just the atmosphere is something I know I’ll miss even before I’ve left them.
14 eventful years of schooling. While all of us may not have stayed at one school for this whole time period (hell, most of us probably wouldn’t have) we’ve still somewhat found a friend circle, a group you’ve grown accustomed to having around you, and people you want in your life for a long time. But as was inevitably going to happen, people have different interests and career desires because of which most of us are probably faced with the unfortunate situation of separation by different states or even countries. The question is, will the relationships sustain? All I can tell you for sure is that the people who value you and appreciate you and can’t imagine losing you will find a way to keep in touch with you and carry on that bond for years to come. In a way, Covid may have helped us get accustomed to perpetuating friendships even without seeing people much. In the end, if it mattered to them, they’d stay.
New beginnings :
A lot of us are moving away from our homes and it can all be very overwhelming as much as it is exciting. Most of my friends have a sense of uncertainty about how this part of their life will unfold. We need to do absolutely everything by ourselves and also manage our studies. This could either shape us into a responsible adult or a mess of a person. Either way, it’s going to be hard work but maybe that’s what’s exciting about it. The beginning of the rest of our lives.