May I recommend the podcast “Bad With Money” with Gabby Dunn? Everything Kate has done, Gabby has done in spades. Some of the podcasts are about feminism and making money in the entertainment industry, but quite a few of them are about personal finance.
Actually, I recommend the podcast even if you aren’t bad with money. She’s really charming even when (especially when) she’s a financial trainwreck. Also, she has expert guests who will tell you things you don’t know about stuff you haven’t even thought about.
Don’t be ashamed, Kate. You’re not the only one who struggles with this. Listening to the podcast might help you realize how not-alone you are.