So much you wrote, I could have written. We (my mom and I, and I’m so sorry you lost your mom) are going to be OK. It was shit there for 7 months. Nervous breakdowns are shit. Real shit. But I did the work and we made it, by the skin of our teeth. I started a new job today. It will probably be fantastic. I’m lucky and blessed.
I wish you all wonderful things, but most of all, peace.