I’m writing a love letter but I don’t know why I’m writing it.
So the heading is as follows: Dear love,
now I’m blank and I don’t know what else to write.
I find that this dedication is just so,… well “personal”.
Placing such a big emphasis
on who you are or what you are to me,
it makes me uneasy.
I’m not so sure that I wish to start
by such a grand statement like “Dear Love”.
Maybe I’ll start by: Dear friend,
or even better: Dear____ and placing your actual name in there.
Yes, that would be so easy just to write: Dear so-and-so.
But it’s not so easy and the pen in my hand is becoming heavy.
I thought it would be great
to finally put into words what I want to say to you.
But now, I’m not sure that I can even write the first sentence.
I don’t know if I want to even send the letter.
Maybe I feel too emotionally attached, too predictable.
Maybe by writing this letter I will be bound by those words,
those feelings of need.
I guess this is not such a good idea.
So my “Dear” letter has to remain
a fleeting thought in my mind.
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