Perfection, what is that?
Imagine this, a first year college student walks out of his classroom knowing that he just failed that exam that he just took. Anxious, angry, and scared, he lies down on his car and ponders on how this test will affect the rest of his collegiate career. Sounds all too familiar doesn’t it?
Even though a lot of people experience this energy draining feeling, why does it seem better if other people experience it instead of ourselves? It’s easy to give sympathy to someone else when they go through disappointment, but when the tables are turned and you are the one who failed and didn’t meet your own expectations it becomes much harder to give sympathy to your own self. Rage, resentment, and hate builds up and because there’s no one else you can blame but yourself, you begin to hate yourself. Negative energy begins to pour into you and you begin to feel bittnerness towards anything or anyone that is happy and feels success in their lives. Our smiles turn into scowls for we wished that we were them. We long for happiness, success, and perfection, but theres are days when it seems like that vision is only to be found in a fairytale.
Pause. Take a breath. Open your mind and realize this… it is okay to fall. All clichés aside, we all know that mistakes are inevitable and that it is a natural part of life, but why does ut feel like it’s still not enough? Pride and ego fuel our minds in our times of failure and cloud our judgements and feelings. It is that same pride that makes us want the same downfall on others when we experience it ourselves. When we are not on the top, we want others to be on the same level as we are. It’s hard to admit this sadistic and narcissistic desire, but it is what makes us very human. Our mistakes, ugliness, and imperfections are what makes us human. Don’t run away from it. Accept it. Stop running away from the very things that make you who you are. Your mistakes and flaws will always be a part of you so instead of running away from it, improve on it. Perfection may not be attainable, but contentment, happiness, and success can. Do not give up on your dreams no matter what life throws at you. There is light and hope in times of darkness and peril.