Wow, great read and I could not agree more. What really hit home was you thinking fixing your physical appearance would fix your brain. I was the exact same, only Iwas bullied because I weighed 120#s.I started lifting at age 24 and stayed with it for nine years. I am enjoying it but the only thing it really helped with was the bullying, and yes it does still happen at that age. At the high point I got up to 205#s and nobody ever bothered me again, I read was not happy though. I haven’t lifted weights in about ten years and was thinking of going back, now that I am much happier and just like you realized,I deserve to be loved. Well, great story and thank you so much.