“For every action…”
— It seems like someone still has a bit of a grudge, Bryce — said Rob while showing for the rest of the table his cell phone with another tweet from Albert about Karma.
Albert was a complete definition of the ex-boyfriend that no one at that breakfast table would like to have, and to my bad luck, he was my ex.
Arrogant, pretentious, dramatic and addicted to sending indirect messages on Twitter. This was the personality he showed in the last weeks of our relationship that made me run as far away from him as possible.
— Karma? Really? Just because I was robbed?
— This is so pathetic!
— What did you do to him? — Larry asked me something I still couldn’t answer.
Maybe the point wasn’t what I did, it was what I did not do. Maybe it was the moments that I didn’t fill his ego enough, the times I didn’t care about his dramas, or when I failed to reaffirm how I wanted to be with him — as if the moments we spent together were not enough.
Later that day, I was still thinking about Karma and my relationship.
I gave myself, opened my feelings — more than once, by the way — , I was trusty and I was totally clear about what I expected from our relationship. In the end, I became the evil boy who deserves bad things, because Karma takes revenge on people who don’t allowed to be controlled by the needs of their partners.
Should not Karma be about justice? When did it become a rift where cowards hide to point out the mistakes of others while they completely ignoring their own?
I believe in karma, believe in fate and believe in the chemistry that may or may not exist between two people. We can not be blamed for not forcing ourselves to love someone. Love happens and, unfortunately, is not always reciprocal.
Some people just were not meant to be together. We deserve more than being unhappy with someone just because we are afraid — afraid that the universe will destroy us if we run away from what makes us bad.
Karma is justice, not revenge.
