Old Wounds
Some wounds never heal. You just dress them in pretty bandages. Pink one day, black the next, maybe a colorful cartoon character now and then. But each time you change that dressing you see the old wound, and you mourn it for a bit.
The Final Chapter
She had imagined that when her day came his face would be the last she saw. Him, holding her hand and telling her everything would be fine. His voice could always calm her. She believed their final chapter would be spent together, and if she were lucky in death, his lips would touch hers and she would hear "I love you" for eternity.
The Deepest Cut
When someone you trust with every fiber of your being betrays you, it cuts deep. It takes time for deep cuts to heal as they do it layer by layer. If one is lucky, the outside will heal beautifully, but those deep layers are hidden and can be quite painful for a long time.
A quote from Hunter:
The greatest mania of all is
passion: and I am a natural slave
to passion: the balance beween
my brain and my soul and my
body is as wild and delicate as the skin of a Ming vase.
Hunter S. Thompson, The Curse of Lono
The Part Where You Miss Somebody
It doesn’t matter if the somebody was fantastic, or was no good to you or for you, you just miss the part that was happy. The part in which you thought you were going to have more tight hugs, more passionate kisses, more laughs.
When the part where you miss somebody suddenly appears, it physically hurts. Your chest tightens, your heart pounds…I don’t know how to explain this part, but your body longs for that strong hug, that safety you felt inside it, but when it doesn’t come, your body aches. It’s like a ghostly reach for something that can’t be obtained and your body is so confused. Why am I not being comforted when I feel so bad? Where is my safety? But the safety you had grown accustomed to is gone. And that’s a part of missing somebody.
The Navigation of Grief
One wakes up and feels it’s going to be a good day and then sadness strikes out of nowhere. When one takes 3 steps forward and 1 step back, they are still gaining tread. Grief is so very difficult to navigate.
Living Dead
Sometimes you have to let the "dead" go even while they are still living. If you don't, your heart will surely stop too.
Lucky?
Those that have never felt true love may be the luckiest of us all. Because without that emotion, they will never have to face the emptiness of despair and loneliness.
Found
Three months after her recent breakup, an old love made their way back into her life. This person had been "by her side" all along but she just kept pushing them away, ignoring them. She hadn’t trusted this person’s instincts during her previous relationship even though she knew they were good. She didn’t know why she was always giving up on this person, they only wanted the best for her, and would never steer her wrong if she would just listen. This person has always been her greatest love, her best friend, her truth.
Finally, she had found herself again, and she is worth loving.
The Letting Go Part II
She let him go because his love was truly lost. He may be near, but his heart is a thousand miles away. He couldn’t run from her fast enough.
She let him go because although their love was yesterday, he had left her ages ago. His words were empty and she had refused to hear them. She is listening now.
She let him go because he no longer made her feel safe. Instead of their bodies intertwined in bed, her heart was tangled in barbed wire. The bleeding must stop.
She let him go because his voice only carried excuses and empty words . It was no longer soothing and only made her cry. So, “Goodbye. Forgiveness must wait.”
