What You Deserve

You deserve friends that you can ask even the stupidest questions. Friends you can text things like “I should not talk to XXX right?” and they will quickly respond yes, and remind you why. You deserve friends that will break their diets for you, and talk about your boy problems until you both have nothing else to say. You deserve friends that gently, kindly, but firmly inform you when you’re doing something stupid, reckless. That then watch you do the stupid thing anyway. That hold you, and comfort you when the stupid thing blows up in your face, and don’t say “I told you so.”

You deserve a job that excites you. That does not placate you, and does not bore you. You deserve a job that challenges you, sometimes frustratingly so. You deserve a job where you are appreciated. Where you don’t hold your breath every time you make a mistake.

You deserve heartbreak and sorrow. This is the only way you will understand how strong you are. You deserve to understand how strong you are. You deserve weeks sobbing so hard you practically melt to the floor. Gasps so loud you can’t control them. Bloodshot eyes, and lumps in your throat. You deserve to fight your way back up. To claw and bleed. To move through the bad days. To not forget what happened, but make it part of you. Own it, let it fill you up.

You deserve respect, and appreciation. From everyone who matters in your life, but particularly, those you are sleeping with. It doesn’t matter if it is a friends with benefits, fuck buddy, fling, or serious relationship. If you are intimate with someone, if you are sharing your body, you deserve honest and open communication. You deserve a safe place to talk about your feelings. You deserve someone someone who understands the gravity of what you are doing, even if it’s casual. Even if it’s not exclusive.

You deserve a loving, caring, relationship. You deserve someone who looks at you like you’re magic. You deserve someone who can’t stop thinking about you, who knows how lucky they are to have you. You deserve someone who fights for you, who knows how to compromise. You deserve someone who loves your faults, but also doesn’t accept your bullshit. You deserve love in whatever form it comes in. And however long it lasts.