I Am Scared of My BPD

Rhian Beam
Nov 7 · 4 min read

I’m afraid of changing course again, I’m afraid of what I don’t know, and I’m afraid of the times that I am manic.

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CW: Borderline Personality Disorder, Depersonalization, Dissociation, Manic Episodes, Passive Suicidal Ideation.

I have talked about my Borderline Personality Disorder before, but mostly about how I manage it. I rarely tell people that I am afraid of it.

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Rhian Beam

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Nonbinary Blogger, Cat Parental Unit. Pronouns: They/Them or Ze/Zir. I write about my queer cryptid experience and what it means to me.

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