Kristie Son
Jul 27, 2017 · 5 min read

Another Beginning

I put a little thought into my title this time. Another beginning signifies my new beginning. I did not want to call it “new” because it seems redundant with most of the online blogs that I have already tried to start and have not been following through since my Sophomore year in college. I have these spurts of writing moments and have not been following through with my promises to write at least 30 minutes everyday. It did not matter much since I am happy that I have even begun to started to keep a blog and continue to hone on my writing skills. It was a goal that I had set out to when I first step foot into UC Berkeley, or even further back, when I took my first writing college class and it changed my mind about writing and “communications”. It was the first moment that I realized how important it is to learn how to communicate as human. The ability to communicate is timeless and it can help you in any field or career that I am thinking of heading towards. Communications are difficult and learning to apply the knowledge one learns could be an arduous process which most people tend to give. But not me, I want to continue to learn as much as I can and I want to master these skills. Thus, I want to begin my first Medium blog with “Another Beginning” and further pushed my progress forward with this new form of medium (ha!) that I am using for various reasons: 1. I want to improve my writing ability in order to take the GRE 2. I can use this as my practice space for applying vocabulary words that I learned as I study from the GRE flashcards (there’s a lot of them). 3. I am planning on going to graduate school and later start my own blog so I might as well start early with this process of writing; and many more reasons.

I am currently testing out the style of the medium to see whether or not I like it and if I do, I will continue to use it. As of now, I do or I might have to get used to it since it is the “future”. I have to learn to adapt. Also, I want to record my daily events in case I want to look back at what has happened. I want to keep most of my memories since I love my life as I am living and I want to be able to remember these moments I have as a person. Why is that so? I am not sure but I just want to preserve them. I guess it is a natural thing. Anyway, most of my thoughts are aim to be stream of consciousness since I do not want to be free as I am writing whatever is on my mind. I hope this blog is private enough for me to feel like so. Would the idea of me putting my thoughts on these blog mean that privacy is mainly lost. If I have the most depressing or crazy thoughts, would I dare to put them down? Probably not because Big Brother is watching afterall. Where will I write down those thoughts? Would writing on here inhibit my true intention and my true unconscious thoughts? Possibly. However, my main purpose on here would be to write about my daily lives and the events that happened while improving my writing ability instead of any life-changing ideas or any demonic thoughts. Anyway, I will not derail from my original purpose of this blog: to record my daily events, thoughts, and feelings. Audience? Future self. Year? 10 years.

I began my day as usual. It is the summer of 2017, the year that I graduated from a University. It is a big deal for me, like any one who has graduated. I woke up at 9:00 AM and felt very refreshed about the morning since I had a good night with Jeremy (as usual) the previous day. He slept over my summer workplace. I woke up and started to post up flyers that I had made the previous day to advertise for an Admission Advising Sessions that my working place is hosting. My main goal is to finish what I had promised to finish with my director, Jun, which I did and I felt very good about it. I want to work really hard for my job. But for certain reasons, the people I work with depletes my energy which makes me not want to work as hard. I guess no one really cares, most people only care about getting the job done. I hope to one day work at a place where I am pushed and challenged to the max. So far, I feel that most work place does not allow for that to happen, but that is another story for later.

After I post them up, I went to get ready as I wait for the meeting with the RA. Nothing really seems off this time. We had such a boring meeting talking about our updates. I dread those useless meetings or ones that people act as if they do not want to see you/want to be there. It is the worst. There is this one particular guy that I do not like at work either and I do not want to waste my energy talking about it.

The highlight of my day consist of walking around Downtown Berkeley with Jeremy, my very best friend. We are the point in our lives where we want to appreciate what life has to offer for us instead of being negative all the time and being complainers about how bad we have it. In reality, we have it very good and I want to move forward from the negative talks and continue on with my life in a positive way. I also had a little talk with a Chinese student complaining about his behavior and he mentioned that the RAs are doing a very inefficient job of solving problems that the students have created themselves. At first, I understood where he came from and listened. Then, I think I let my emotion take over and I felt very defensive as if he had attacked me that I was doing a very poor job. My thoughts right there is that I want to defend the team. Was it? Or was I trying to defend myself? I want to start being a leader for my family, friends, and future self as well. Thus, I want to everyday reflect on my decisions as a leader. I feel as though I need to control my emotions more and lower my tone if I am going to talk to others. That is, I want to be in control of my voice when I talk with reasons. I will keep this in mind and train my voice, body, and mind to master myself as my the ideal-I that I want to become. Whether it is possible or not, I am going to DO! I will not waste any more time and “make haste”, my friend. Life is too short. Life is pith!

I had dinner with Jeremy as usual, and we ride on our usual everyday bus ride while I get some toilet papers from Jeremy’s place. Anyway, I will let my mind rest for a while and end my post here for the night.

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