I grew up in Detroit during the riots, and attended out-of-control schools. I know what anxiety is.
I taught my children, as my father taught me, the dangerous possibilities of life, the need to think rather than feel, and the need to pay attention to, but not obey, feelings.
A conservative understanding of life recognizes the possibility of evil in others, and especially oneself. Hence the need for self-control, social conventions, laws, and force in the hands of authorities, as well as division of powers, and mutual accountability. I pray that your life will be lived in support of the social safeguards necessary for us all.