Jul 18, 2020When do I Write?When I was angry, and had no idea what to do with myself, locked in my apartment with a potential COVID-19 diagnosis looming, I wrote. I opened a blank document on my computer and typed until I stopped crying. Then I put on some funny videos. Then I wrote some…Writing2 min readWriting2 min read
Jul 11, 2020Sports BrasI’ve worn sports bras almost every single day since I started transitioning. Even before that, I just felt more comfortable in them. I didn’t understand why, but I liked the constriction. After I started to transition, any day I wasn’t wearing a sports bra, I was binding. Most of my…LGBTQ3 min readLGBTQ3 min read
Jul 3, 2020Missing OutOn January 10th, 2020, I started taking testosterone. On June 11th, 2020, I turned 28. On June 18th, 2020, I had top surgery. I started my exploration of gender when I was 21. I was studying abroad, and somehow stumbled across the word “genderfluid”. It was the first time I…Transgender3 min readTransgender3 min read
Mar 21, 2020upon the matchSometimes I light matches for no reason. I have more candles than any one person probably should, and I have a small lighter that I could use rather than the matches. But there’s something about the way a match burns. Sometimes you strike it too hard, and break the wood…Fire2 min readFire2 min read
Mar 21, 2020A Open Letter to “Brad” on LinkedInTo the man named “Brad” on my LinkedIn page: Who are you? Why are you here? Oh, you’re suggested as a connection! Let’s see what we’ve got in common. Did we go to the same university? Oh, not the same university. Not even in the same state. What university is…Satire1 min readSatire1 min read
Mar 20, 2020On Having to be a Bad FriendLife can be a little Demandy-Sandy, and finding a balance continues to be difficult. We’re all out here doing our things, but being an adult feels like being endlessly busy and hoping you’ll just be slightly less busy the next week. You never are. Life never stops demanding. Friendships fall…Friendship2 min readFriendship2 min read
Feb 17, 2020dysphoriai feel like i’m screaming at nothing no sounds are coming out i feel every cell crawling on my chest my hands want to rip my body apart i feel like i need a shower but no amount of scaling hot water can cleanse this feeling don’t look in the mirror as you walk past it don’t…Transgender2 min readTransgender2 min read
Nov 21, 2019I’ve Been Thinking a Lot About IcelandI’ve been thinking a lot about Iceland lately. About the hills, and rocks, and unique landscapes. I’ve been thinking about the wind and the rain. About the Gullfoss waterfall and the incredible majesty it holds. About the wall where the North American and European plates collide. About the view of…Iceland2 min readIceland2 min read
Jun 11, 2019What to do When the Power is OutFive days. Five days without power. No air conditioning, no WiFi, no refrigerated food, no working freezer. Your house is a dead zone, so you barely have phone signal. So, what to do? …Horror2 min readHorror2 min read
Mar 29, 2019Agender ExplorationI never had a gender epiphany. I didn’t know from a young age that my gender was different than the one I was given. When I was younger, I had very long phase of wanting what I called “Barbie hair”. That is, super long, flowing, beautiful hair. I got a…Transgender4 min readTransgender4 min read
