It all comes around

Last time I wrote… was November 26th and I was in the midst of my little experiment. I decided to end it the Friday/Saturday of next week, and I kind of did, except I still didn’t check twitter and podcasts. So now it’s time to talk about what we learned today :

1. If I’m not motivated to do my homework I’m going to procrastinate no matter what, regardless of what I lockdown or not allow myself to do. Oh well, at least I can do more productive/helpful activities now.
2. Facebook sucks… like really sucks, sadly I do a lot of messaging on there and I’m part of some groups that I need to check. Still addicted in a sense.
3. Devotions, still not great, but in the new year (BTW this isn’t a resolution it just happened to coincide with the new year) the Bible Project has put out a Bible Reading Plan, with a new video every with every book. I’m super excited to start doing it and I hope you will check it out and sign up for it here.

Much learning on my part, but recently much has changed in the world of me. Yes, the world is all about me, or have you not figured that part out yet?

For many years I thought the problems and burdens I encountered were things I was just being silly, stupid or sinful about. That whatever or whenever was going through something tough, I thought it that it was my fault and a result of my sin and idiocy. So I rarely talked to God about the problems I encountered, they were mine to deal with, a natural consequence to my terrible sin. I knew God died for my sins, but I had to deal with the earthly problems on my own. This theology (if you can even call it that) is obviously terribly wrong. And it took a lot to come to understand that I believed this, that it was wrong and why I believed it in the first place. For example, I grew up quite a lonely child. For various reasons and circumstances I moved schools every few years (for context I am currently attending my 8th school) and therefore it was difficult to make good solid friendships. However I had decided that because of the choices I made in choosing schools, and transferring a lot was my fault (it really wasn’t) I would never get a good group of friends or even a friend I could just talk to openly. These past couple years and this year especially, that has all changed. Not only do I have a great group of friends but keep in touch with them on a frequent basis. My mentor reminded me that we had prayed over this topic, but I recall not really believing God that he would ever do this. This is just one of the many ways God has been changing my heart and showing how he is totally sovereign over all. While at the same time, convicting my heart to trust him and to look past my (sometimes supposed) failures.

Another way God has been revealing himself to me and how he has changed my life is in school as well. I mentioned in the past that I decided to change my degree to communications instead of business. As a result of this I thought that all the courses I took at SFU would count, but really wouldn’t amount to much in terms of getting a paper credential at Douglas. I was wrong. Not only do I get a Certificate in General Business, but I also get a General Studies Diploma as well. Talk about God taking my bad course choices in the summer and fall and turning it into something great.

Oh and another way (I’m going to keep talking about this because God is awesome, so you know go eat that cupcake I gave you last time or something) God has been showing himself to me is through driving. Recently my dad changed jobs, as a result I now get the car. I used to be terrified to drive it, now I’m addicted to the convenience of it. I still don’t enjoy it though, however it gives me the opportunity to listen to good podcasts which is a bonus.

Okay one last one, lately God has been providing a lot of closure with past problems I encountered. Much of the origins of my sins and problematic relationships with others have come to light and I feel so much better knowing that I wasn’t crazy or alone.

I hope you had a wonderful holiday and Happy 2016!