Day 1

Rizwan MAqsood
Sep 1, 2018 · 2 min read

Today when I woke up I felt the same weight holding me down like I feel on most mornings. But it was relatively calmer morning. I had the Amal session in the morning, I ate breakfast, get dressed, and went to the Punjab University. It was hot and humid and there was no forecast of rain.
I had a relatively busy day at Amal, it was filled with activities and there was a guest lecturer. Mr. Bilal gave the lecture on going the extra mile and how it is not necessary to choose the same profession in which you have graduated in. He shared his story, he was an Engineer but chose his profession in Human Resource and build a career in it. Most of the things that he said really touched me because deep down I think that I had made the wrong choice and chose the wrong path. It is not that I don’t like marketing or I’m not going to be good at it, I think that if I pursue that career over a period of time I will be great at it. But I don’t think it serves any deeper purpose to my existence, I like marketing but there is this dissonance, this void that is never going to be filled. I know that whatever I do in my brief existence ,the void inside me will never going to be filled but I think that with Philosophy as a profession I would have a better chance of accepting the absurdity of existence. I’m going to seriously think about my career and my future education.
I also had an activity which emphasizes and reinforce the team spirit and helps to develop deeper bonds with other fellows. But like always I felt detached from my surroundings and alienated from my fellow species. It felt like the person standing next to me is separated from me by the distance of light years.