I don’t mean to be dismissive or trite but if only you could move to Nigeria or Swaziland. You would be normal and at times have the luxury of choosing between a couple of not bad looking often slim guys. ‘Fat women are beautiful’ he says as he wraps his arms around me. A size 16 is more of the norm in some climes.
What beats me is how even children who are big are now allowed to just ‘be’. It’s terrible. Thank God you are finding courage to accept yourself. One can be bigger than others and still healthy. Focus on your health and if you can (yes I know is sounds ridiculous) move. Western society just loves to hate itself for some reason am yet to fathom. Courage courage and good luck.