I Was Bitter, Thus I Wasn’t Better!

When I was young, it use to blow my mind how my grandfather use to really practice forgiving and I mean really forgetting. I. didn’t understand how he could just let go the fact that someone had done him wrong intentionally and still love them inspire of.

He told me that two wrongs don’t make a right, and I still thought that if you do me wrong I forgive you but I won’t forget.

By having that mentally I thought I was doing good, I mean I didn’t let things stop me and I always said a prayer for the people that harmed me. As I was speaking to someone yesterday and giving them words of encouragement it hit me that I myself was bitter thus I was not getting better.

Let me explain to you what mean, you see I been doing my writing thing for sometime now and I reached out to so many people for help, or just to help me get the word out by sharing what I do. Many people have and are still helping me but the people I counted on most didn’t and still don’t.

Now I chalked it up to the game because I understand that to some, if your not doing the norm they don’t care, or if they can’t see the pay off right then they aren’t with it. The thing that bothered me the most was that they would go out there way to help someone else, or have interest in what everyone else was doing.

I held it in but what I began to realize was that my bitterness had began to creep into my everyday life. You see what you see with your eyes, and hear with your ears is colored by the condition of your heart. My heart was so hurt and bitter that everything that was said I took wrong, everything that wasn’t I took wrong. Yet I thought I was okay because I said I forgive but I didn’t forget.

What I had to learn was to let it go, yes it is true that how you treat people will come back to you, and it doesn’t have to come right on you, but it can come on your kids or your kids kids. I had to stop looking forward to the get back and focus on really showing mercy that God has shown me.

Not forgive is really a selfish act because your only thinking about your own feelings and nothing else. Not forgiving causes you also to be chained to the offense that was done to you while the offender goes on with their life.

So just because you think your good about what has happened to you, take a moment and really examine yourself. Sometimes the reason why you handle situations the way you do is because your still bitter, and when your bitter it taints the way you view life. You go into realationships with jaded but you mask it as being strong!