One step’s just a snapshot of the journey. One phase of my tidal nature turning…

I released a new song today. It was written, recorded, and engineered in 24 hours.

My music tends to surround my struggles in life, and “Blank Slate” is likely the most comprehensive example of that fact.

My mixtape was about the same things. It was borne from depression, dependence, and complacency. It was fueled by frustration and a willingness to learn sound design from the ground up, and it shows.

The audio was never mixed or mastered properly. The sound was so jarring that, to this day, I legitimately don’t enjoy listening to the six songs on Affluenza.

Don’t mistake my reluctance for shame however; the 6 ramblings came out well-written and I talked about the things that I care about.

I didn’t release Affluenza for a target audience or an existing fanbase of mine. I created it to be a bookend of a very unhappy and tumultuous time period in my adult life. I thought that, if I could reflect on why I was unhappy and admit it to the wider world, I would be able to put it behind me and live without it.

I was naive to think so.

You don’t leave depression or anxiety in the past. Those thoughts and feelings stay with you, until the fateful day you die. What a torturous idea?

Blank Slate is about what I wanted from my debut mixtape and didn’t get.

Not praise,

not fame,

a resolution.

Rohan Bhatt

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