Waiting for you

Dear future partner. I don’t see any trace of your visage but one thing I’m pretty sure is that you’re still breathing — still existing somewhere out there. I can sense how beautiful your soul is. Lately I’ve been thinking about you. Even at the busiest of my days, I think about you. And when I’m on a ride to work, a thought of you lingers on. I believe you must be special. That despite the perplexities and complexities this life has to offer, I often find myself thinking about you. Only that I don’t see any concrete visage of you.

Perhaps right now you’ll say I’m crazy. Yes I’m crazy about you. The thought of you makes me hopeful and a bit excited. Just to let you know, I had fallen in love in the distant past with the wrong person. People close to me told that I’m insane. Well, I guess that’s what love is. You lose control of your perspicacity and rationality. But you know what? I really thought it was love. I had done what a lover has to do. I had provided my precious time, sheer energy and indubitable effort. I did everything to make the relationship work. Yes, I thought I was in a relationship with someone who is ready to reciprocate my overflowing love. But I was wrong, totally wrong.

Hitherto, amid all the uncertainties in life, I am holding on to the idea that there exist you and me. And that fate will work its way towards finding and meeting you. When that perfect time comes, I won’t squander a second or so of our precious time together. I’m not certain of how each day will unfold. But I have visions.

I have a vision that you are vocal — that you enjoy talking about how you spent your day at work — that you like sharing about your dreams, goals, plans and aspirations for both of us.

I have a vision that you are smart. Since I’m a book lover, I like to spend our leisure time together discussing about the book we recently read, making reflections about it. That’s a cool day, isn’t it?

I have a vision that you are huggable. I won’t let the day slip without hugging you tight because I find it really comforting after a hard day’s work.

I have a vision that you are family-oriented. I have this strong credence that when you value your parents, siblings, nephews and the likes, you are worth the love and respect.

I have a vision that you are free from vices. Since I don’t have any vices, I would also want that you are free from any vices like smoking and gambling. You can drink liquor but you have to be responsible for it. I guess you know what I mean for being responsible.

I have a vision that you are caring and thoughtful. I very much like if you’ll always ask if I’m all right, how’s my day, have you eaten your lunch yet or so. Gestures like those really melt my heart. However, I won’t demand you to text me back in every message I send if there’s a valid reason why you failed to reply. And on special days like birthdays, anniversaries and the likes, I want you to make me feel special. Surprises and ingenuity are just cool and awesome.

I have a vision that you are God-fearing. I want to picture Sundays with you in the church showing our devotion to the Divine Creator, grateful of all the blessings in our life. I believe that when we have Him at the center of everything, then we can weather any storms of life that may come our way.

Now that you have a clear view of my visions, I only have three wishes. First, please be brave enough to find me. I would love to converse with you. Second, please let me know that you read this literature and how you felt about it. Third, please make me believe in love again. I’m just here waiting for you.