I’m tired. I’m tired of being autistic. I’m tired of autism ruling every part of my life. I’m tired of it making everything so hard. Being autistic means that my brain is wired differently and that means I struggle with everyday things, every day. All the time. It just doesn’t…

At different times in my life, I would have answered that question differently. In 2016, when I was facing entering the workplace and seemingly unable to do so, I would have said yes. I didn’t know at the time I was autistic, but I would have given anything to ‘be…

A week or so ago I was sat playing a card/counter game with my partner. She offered for me to go first and as usual I refused. She jokingly asked if it was part of my strategy to let her go first to see where she put her counter. I…

[Written in 2021] Disclaimer: Please note that I am talking about my specific personal experience and every autistic person is different. I am explaining my experience to give a better general understanding of the process of a meltdown. Also note that any medication and/or methods used have been approved by…

How many autistic people reading this have been told that they need to ‘let something go’? Probably most of you, it not all. The problem is that the way an autistic mind works, means it latches on to certain things. Sometimes this can be a brilliant thing, like the way…

Gaslighting is when someone makes someone else doubt their own experiences. It is a form of abuse in which the person is left questioning their own reality and memories. It is disorientating and confusing, it leaves you doubting your own mind. This is done so the person doing it can…

[Written in 2020] I knew when I entered a relationship that eating would be a hurdle I would have to overcome. It was a hurdle I wasn’t sure I would be able to overcome. I struggle to eat anywhere other than at home or my parent’s home and even at…

Disclaimer: This is a deeply personal blog coming from someone who is really struggling right now with being autistic. It is not a wide statement saying autism should be removed from anyone. It is my own journey and struggle based on my own autistic experience. I do not speak on…

My life is a life of extremes, and quite honestly heart-breaking extremes. When it comes to education and work, I can get by with reasonable adjustments because both of those environments can adapt to my needs. University gave me a disability mentor to help me communicate and ask for adjustments…