GIVING THANKS FOR MY DIVORCE
It’s Thanksgiving. The Time Of Year When We Remember And Mark All The Things In Our Life We Are Thankful For. I Can Count So Many Things This Week As I Pause. One Of The Things I’m Thankful For? I’m Giving Thanks For My Divorce. And All The Life Lessons That Came With It.
Yes, I’m thankful for all the kind and caring people who are in my life. My family, my close friends who have become my family; my amazing, intelligent daughter. But I’m also giving thanks for something unexpected. I’m giving thanks for this very difficult time in my life. I’m giving thanks for my divorce because without this pain, I wouldn’t have learned so much about life and myself.
It hasn’t been easy. No, no. It’s been the opposite. It’s been grueling and painful at times. Time painted black. Would I have welcomed this gift? No. But through this I’ve learned so much. About me, about my strength. I’ve learned that I am reaallly strong. I can handle so many things I’ve feared. I’ve learned that I am brave. This song says it best.
Alanis Morrisette, Thank You
How ’bout me not blaming you for everything
How ’bout me enjoying the moment for once
How ’bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
How ’bout grieving it all one at a time
Thank you India, thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty, thank you consequence
Thank you, thank you, silence
I used to think that I was weak. That I was soft. I am soft but I also have a core of unfathomable strength inside of me. Without my divorce, I wouldn’t have known this power was there.
So, darkness, divorce, tears. Silence. Today I am thankful.