Do you love me? Do you love me not?
I can’t understand, why do you confuse me?
One day I’m the center of your universe, then the next I’m just a flower bud, standing tall to a fully bloom flower, waiting for the chance to flourish just the same.
Do you really feel the same way as me?
I have thought of giving up, but the vision of feeling the ‘love’ I could get from you the next day, led me to stay.
I sometimes wonder — Is it just me who loves you? Or do you love me too?
“Love the way you want to be loved”
I often hear this quote, but why can’t the way I love just be reciprocated? Why can’t you love me the same?
Your inconsistencies has led me every other night to rethink upon my decision — of loving you this way.
I once had an idea to give back what you were giving me, yet I failed. As much as I wanted to reciprocate the energy I was receiving from you, I just can’t — I can’t hold myself back from loving you….too much, I guess..?
But, maybe….It was my fault.
Maybe I expected too much in return which led to this heartbreak. Maybe I should just accept the fact that we don’t love the same way. We probably have our own way of loving one another. I wanted to be consistent, and maybe you wanted to be inconsistent — I just have to accept that, right…?
All I have to do is hold on, maybe wait for the moment where I’ll eventually break — where I’ll eventually be able to finally reciprocate your inconsistencies.
But before then, I just have to wipe away my tears, plaster a smile, and push away my thoughts — because at the end of the day, It’ll be us against the world.
With all my reassuring thoughts to myself, I still can’t help but think….
Do you love me? or Do you love me not?
