Weaknesses are Great Discovery

A lesson learned on March, 2nd 2016.

I hate feeling weak. I hate to not being able to do things whether I suppose to do it or not. Some of my time are spent on admiring what others can do and the rest are on hating myself for not being able to do so. Thus I push myself to learn as much as I can manage. But no matter how much I learn, the more I know about things, the weaker I think I become. It is a frustrating loop.

I've tried and failed on all of my attempts to break the loop. There won't be any scenario in which I can know and do everything. Therefore, no way I could stop feeling weak. So I decided to just deal with it.

Here’s the catch. Everybody has the same situation as I do. Some learn how to deal with it greatly. Few others, like me, have a hard time reaching for self acceptance. To have the sense of awareness that, weaknesses are the greatest discovery possible for a human.

The frustrating feeling of inabilities is a fuel to keep me do the right thing; to learn. To know there are others, ones who can do things I can't, ones who can do better than me, whom I could learn from, whom I need to know. So then I could love.