Laurel Berryman -Bailey
Nov 5 · 2 min read

So, I have come to the bottom of my so called life. Though I have always taken pride in the idea of being self sufficient and a go getter. At 50 years old I have had new revelations, like my joints and bones are not 23 anymore and my mouth is bigger than my fight now, and realizing all the things that my parents said would happen if I kept doing things my way actually have happened. I’m saddened in the fact that all I ever did was watch life pass by me, hell even could say that I didn’t even notice life outside my world that I created to make myself believe that I was ok. Well I’m not ok and the networking that I did was not sustainable. And my foot in mouth syndrome and bipolar actions have gotten me absolutely no where and even hated. I’m not blaming anyone because it was all me. I personally destroyed little by little every relationship every job opportunity and now I am 50, and full of regret and shame and even though I am lucky enough to have an amazing husband that forgave me and still Somehow loves me, and supports me, financially. I feel that I’m ready to help to better my life, so that. My husband doesn’t have to do it alone. Even when I attempt to show how much I have grown and how much I have inside of me to offer, I am shut down on every turn. Can’t anyone out there see? I realize my mistakes and I’m asking for a chance at life and education and the pursuit of happiness the last time I checked I still lived in 🇺🇸 and its the home of the free not the home of the dictators and commies, that seem to be ruling my life, or it could be some anonymous hackers, just trying to keep me down.? I have given it over to God at this point at least I know he truly forgives. No real point to this ..just a vent..thanks by Laurel Berryman -Bailey

    Laurel Berryman -Bailey

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