Beautifully written Manpreet! This echoes exactly what I have felt. It is truly like living with a ghost that follows me throughout life, always that light presence in my mind, always a reminder of the days gone by.
Love of this sort was never meant to have gone unfulfilled, and was never meant to be relived in memory and pictures alone.
But here we are, hoping for renewal, and erasure. I liked what you said about scrubbing out the past with bleach; I have wished it too.
I’m very grateful to read your beautiful, subtle, and meaningful words; there is so much quiet dignity in what you write. Thank you!