A Token of Appreciation
To,
A love that bloomed.
This is just me stating bluntly my love for you. This is me who’s professing his love for you. Put it on the headlines. Let them know. Let them know how much I love you, how much I have love for you.
We met at a time when everyone was sleeping. Dreaming in their own world, knitting their vibrant hopes and dreams with threads that are tiny and thin. Escaping the norm, breaking the law- we met.
None of us knew what happened, it was just as if two fishes from two completely different water met at the wrong place, at the wrong time.
We were clouded by darkness. But then came the light.
I remember the sparkle I saw in your eyes when we bumped into each other again. The rays of light that once was not there is there now and made me realize how beautiful a soul can be once you see them through your heart, instead through your eyes.
It was unexpected, but fate had us two tiny fishes looped into a bowl of water.
Then I purposely visited your mind, and you being aware of that, let me.
Little did I know, how exquisite it was that I’d fall in love with it.
We tend to say “You don’t know me, you don’t know who I am, I’m different…” a lot. We say these things knowing the fact that no matter how hard we try, we’ll never get the chance to know a person completely. It’s out of our hands, it’s out of our imagination.
But little did I know that you don’t need to know a person completely to put your love into them. All you need is a smile and a touch.
You reflected. I reflected. We reflected.
There was a strong, well-built bridge that we created. You gave me the raw materials, I organized them. You gave life to it, I gave love to it. We both gave a meaning to it.
But even though we both are aware of the bridge and helped each other making it, we are not yet ready to walk through it, holding hands with a smile on our face screaming “You make me feel alive!” at the top of our lungs!
Maybe it’s me, maybe it’s you- or bluntly speaking, maybe it’s both of us. Both of us wanted to touch our scars, but both of us rejected the very idea of intimacy even though we made a sacred bond called friendship.
That’s the dilemma of the “two-fish-in-a-bowl theory”. They eat together, play together, dream together- yet they don’t connect together.
I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know about tomorrow or anything that’s gonna happen a few minutes from now.
But what I do know is that I enjoy your company.
I enjoy the small, little deep conversations we have. I enjoy the foolishness. I enjoy the energy. I enjoy the silence. I enjoy the very idea of you. I enjoy you being you, and me being me.
And before I mark myself away from this little diary of mine, let me restate my love for you in a phrase.
Moving closer to the darker territories doesn’t scare me anymore. I know you’re with me, you’ll illuminate the way for me.
-Sabab
