so wrong in many level

it is so funny how i just can’t handle my self crying over and over again for the same reasons. i always talk to my self, you don’t need to cry, its fine, you’re going to be okay, just don’t cry….

but eventually, i always end up crying every time i fight with you. no, it’s not because i’m so mushy, it’s because i’m so in love with you that i just can’t stand the idea of losing you because of the fight that shouldn’t be there in the first place.

i was thinking maybe if i made different decision back then everything is going to be fine, no fight at all. but hey, the fight will always be there, that what makes you two become stronger. i know but i’m scared:(

maybe i am into my work too much until i do everything based on that work, which i actually shouldn’t do. but sometimes i just don’t realise it you know? i know it is hard to admit that i am wrong but maybe in this case i am wrong.

life was not all about work, see who’s gonna be there for you? some of your what-so-called-best-coworkers are now becoming your enemy. they hate you, so face it. face it that your work is not everything.

sometimes i just need to skip my life to february, when this all over and i won’t have any of this fight anymore. i hope we’ll survive because i love you.