Life is worth waiting…

Saif Alam
Saif Alam
Jul 30, 2017 · 3 min read

I know, there was a time in my life where I thought quitting was the only option left, I was scared of facing defeat and always hungry for victories, whether it’s a cricket match or losing a wrestling Trump card game to a friend. I always felt that i’m heroic. No not one in the movies but a real protagonist in actuality. I reminisce you something very interesting, which is related to my pre existence and how I existed in this world. My mom during her pregnancy, was quiet reluctant to drop her fourth child as she didn’t wanted to add much to India’s population growth and being a fourth would be difficult to carry. She took some pills in order to infanticide me,but however she changed her plan and thought of giving me a life in spite of consuming some early doses. Amma, was hard worker from office to home taking care of all her three children alone,as dad was abroad since time immemorial after my eldest brother was born and he used to come once in a year. One fine day in her eight months of pregnancy, my mother while doing an household chores, fell down and hit the floors on her stomach and the foetus inside (myself) thought has died. After examining to doctor the results were safe but they concluded that the child would become abnormal after delivery or he/she would give birth as dead. The great day came it was 24th July heavy showers and the time of night it was around 8.45 pm and the Azan for prayer was called and the nurse came out with a baby boy to my relatives who were standing to see a premature baby, but guess what all were stunned to see a miraculous child who was extremely fair and healthy and almost the charm of a prince, yeah somewhat like baby taimur. I was so beautiful, that even people wanted to buy me at the early age. Thanks, to my mom I wasn’t sold out in auctions as she kept me with her. I still, feel empathy for the doctor who gave those remarks on me poor guy didn’t made a right guess.

As I grew, I understood what actually life is, I was serious from childhood and learned all that things of maturity at a fine age of 8 when I wasn’t allowed to sit for exams when my parents failed to pay my fees, as a topper it was tough to miss exams but I know it was my family’s baddest time. It was a Kuwait war, and my dad was able to survive and come back that was enough. I got familiar with things at early age, like seeing how the media lies, with the manipulated talks and spread fake talks. Hypocrisy was the first thing I encountered at early age, I got to know that people are just people good in upfront and negative when you turn your back. My adolescence faced some real issues related to love finding a true was difficult, as I was dumped and betrayed twice by those I loved once.

Thankfully, those were some serious lessons learned,and as they say to find a diamond you have to first make your hands dirty in coals. Finding my soul mate was difficult but it was amazing and her love towards me never let me down for anything and encouraged me to do all the possible things and making me realize how strong am I. There was a time, I remember when I used to sit in attic and cry over the past how vulnerable was I. God forbid, I don’t want even my foes to see those days, the Dark nights. It’s all about your choices whom you are loving we have a retina about 567 pixels fit in it yet we don’t recognize who is right and who is wrong and then cry for betrayals. It’s all about seeing who is there for you and who’s not. Rest all is fragile, eat, sleep love them and repeat.

If you are going through any sort of pain in life, just remember that isn’t permanent it’s for a shorter time,survive it don’t quit life has much to offer no sooner than later.

Saif Alam

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The vision is blind, but the aim is clear.

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